Pretend

I'm tired ofpretending

If I'mfeeling sad,

I'm not goingto hide it

I'm exhausted        

Everyonethinks I'm always happy

But I'm not,

I don't evenremember the last time

I reallyfelt happy,

I've beenpretending for so long

That I don'teven know how I feel

How should Ifeel?

What shouldI feel?

What shouldI say?

I've beenpretending to protect myself

to preventme from the pain

But I'vekept it so hard,

that it'shurting more instead.

And I don'tknow what to do

to make itstop,

to let itgo,

to make itgo away.

But thething is,

Will it evergo away?

Will I everbe the same?

Will I eversmile like before?

Will I everfeel happy again?

I hope Iwill, but I'm not sure at all.